serious question survey..

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
definitely. If someone in my family needed that much extra support I'm sure we'd all be sporting a Maynard James Keenan crop.

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
I'd immediately start a cult because it would obviously be some type of messiah I would have growing in there. Way better than Jesus! Then I'd most likely get it aborted because I'm not prepared to have a child right now and it would be child abuse to do so.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
No... my dad doesn't think he has an alcohol problem.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yes, very much so.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
nope.

Explain the last time you threw up:
saturday. i was eating cookies then suddenly was stricken with an intense need to empty my stomach contents.

Last thing that made you cry:
i don't remember.

Do you have a bad temper?
sometimes.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
I dunno.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
1.

How often do you think about suicide?
never.

What is your deepest fear?
snakes.

Do you REALLY love all your family?
yeah i definitely love them all... I just may not like a few.

What do you want to believe in?
me.

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
nope

Are you proud of who you are?
yeah.

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
Yes.

What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
I'm not sure.

Do you care if people hate you?
Let them hate me so long as they fear me. I'm too busy to care what people think of me. I'm blessed to have a few kick ass friends having everyone like me is just selfish. I do wish people would believe lies about me without asking me if they're true or not.

Freedom or safety?
freedom.

Has a song ever made you cry?
omg yes! umm... i can't listen to hurt by NIN, here in heaven by clapton, wonderful by everclear and last kiss by pearl jam.

A book ever made you cry?
yes.. many... tis, angela's ashes, the bluest eyes, the curious incident of the dog in the nighttime, where the red fern grows, go ask alice and i'm sure there are tons of others but I can't think of any right now.

Is the world crumbling to pieces?
who knows. i think that some aspects of the world we've been able to understand but others it is not possible to fathom with our puny earthing minds

Name one moment where you couldn't control your rage:
earlier this semester when my roommates stopped buying dew and started buying weird tonic then were still drinking all my dew. if i wanted to buy weird tonic i would

Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:
humm... probably before I knew what this pain was coming from. now that i know what to call it when i'm bitching about it i can go on living.

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
dancing is forbidden.